Glare

do you know
that I cry almost everyday
do you know
that I do envy you
your problem can be solved in minutes
mine
never can be solved for ever
do you know
that I am happy for you
all about your condition
all about your happiness
all about your sadness
quite pretty sadness
sadness in happiness

do you know, I always cry behind my smile
do you know, I hate my hair
I cut it, with a wish
with a wish that I could reborn as a newborn baby
but in fact
that's all wrong

I have an invisible scar
it's not about self-masochism
I'm just weak
I'm just a normal human

I need help

once more